Archive for August, 2008

And two for the weekend

Nocturne

 

A holiday, a holiday, the first one of the year

 

You

should see

the Northern Lights

the best I ever saw.

 

I

was too tired

to get up and look, only see them thru

your eyes

(they were swirly liquid vases.)

 

When coughing wakes me

I go downstairs,

out the back door,

see high clouds

and a waning moon

rise in the east

over blinking red radio towers,

write down words

to a Dylan song

(rainy days on the Great Lakes

walkin’ the hills of old Duluth)

and go back to bed.

 

I

hope the bird clock didn’t wake you –

black-capped chickadee

2 a.m. –

your birthday!

 

It’s hard to lie still

when I’m anxious to start the trip,

to travel again

with you

with you

to travel again with you!

 

9-30-99

 

 

 

Simple Pleasures

 

Kitchen table.

Izzy with book.

Sal reaching for oatmeal.

Butter, brown sugar, raisins and milk.

You on a run.

 

9-30-99

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A summer poem with mary oliver enjambment and exclamations!

Star-Crossed

 

 

Imagine 2 light beams

skidding unawares

across the frozen beyond,

each on its accidental course

thru a 3-D universe: by what

odd chance would they

meet and join

and glow?

 

Imagine a kayak,

its 2-bladed paddle

tracing conic sections,

2 elliptical orbits

180 degrees out of phase,

its wake pushing out perpetual “V”s,

all curvilinear effort translated

straight across a flat blue plane.

 

Now I curl

down Hancock Hill

and bank onto the bridge,

legs spinning out circles,

shoulders tucked to the wind,

over the blue steel lattice

like the Cartesian grid of space

and I chance a dizzying glance

 

thru this framework

into the blue water,

waves rippling east

as I vector south,

 

perpendicular but askew,

10 meters above

and there you go

10 meters below

 

an improbable blur

of particle and wave,

atom and field,

all stroke and slip

and slice thru space and time.

How many near misses

for every intersection

of fates!  How much

 

water under the bridge!

How many photons

streak the starry sky!

 

 

 

 

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Prose

Family Tradition

 

 Late afternoon sun, my father’s left forearm resting on the wide-open window of a turquoise-green ’65 Chevy Belair cruising south through the drawling red-clay hills and piney woods of central Georgia. Air from the wing window lifts a wisp of black hair bouncing on his high forehead above the black prescription sunglasses which my mother just fished out of her enormous beige, long-strapped sack of a purse crammed with whatever anyone else might need, from crackers and mints to moist towelettes and lotions. Sharon sits to my left, behind him, wearing pale green culottes, her August-tanned legs pulled up under her, dealing cards for a game of War while I stretch my legs and strain at the lap belt and reach for the back window and feel the sun-cracked green upholstery scratch at my right elbow, as suddenly he zooms out to pass the white Caddy with the poodle in the window and we are face-to-face with an oncoming truck in a two-way construction zone.  Mom gasps and pushes her right foot hard against the clear plastic floor mat as we glide back into the line of cars like a jet landing on an aircraft carrier.  Turn up the radio, Dad, I call from the back, as the Kinks sing L-O-L-A Lola, but instead he turns the dial and tunes in livestock prices, pork bellies up three cents, and now a word from our sponsor, Bob’s Carpet Emporium of Dalton, where great selection at wholesale prices have been a family tradition since 1939.  Dogs bark Jingle Bells.  Six hundred miles to go.

 

 

 

 

Temptation

 

A noun, in English meaning enticement to do wrong by promise of pleasure or gain.  When did seduction, persuasion, incitement and allurement become Sin?  The Spanish spelling, tentacion, speaks of the Latin root ten, as in tendere: to stretch; tentare: to feel, touch; tenere: to hold.  Like ten fingertips, te(n)mptation is the place where the extremities of Self, the calluses of Experience, stretch to touch, to feel, to hold.  Hands are made to reach, to touch ten-derly, to grasp; mouths open to eat and drink and kiss; lovers are born to live and love.  Plato said temptation is the desire to fulfill Design, the need to become whole, the lover’s search for his other half – the soul-mate – from whom he was cleaved at the beginning of time.  The soul of Judeo-Christian temptation with an “m” aspires to be sated like a double-humped camel at the water holes and under the date palms of Eden: to want more would be Sin.  On the other hand, the pre-Christian tentation, with an “n,” is just another lonely consonant looking for a good hump.

 

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remembering katrina

   Fat Tuesday

 

(For Andre Codrescu)

 

 

You said

            when you talk about

                        New Orleans at Mardi Gras

You always

            feel like you’re

                        selling the whole thing

Short because

            you’re forgetting the best parts

                        but you could also say that about

Life —

            everywhere you look it’s

                        Fat Tuesday

And even that

            would be selling the whole thing

                        short!

 

 

 

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Sternwheeler

So you mostly walk the deck

and watch the shoreline slip away,

Indiana on the left, Kentucky on the right,

your world shrinking down

to the girl, the boat and the enveloping dark. 

You hang out over the stern railing

above the paddlewheel that mows

through muddy green meadows of river

and churns out frothy haystacks,

dark hills of just-lived moments

receding one by one into night.

You hold hands like there’s no letting go,

like you won’t slip into the churning.

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Lake Effect

 Late lunch after a quick swim at the college.  I come out of the cold into the neighborhood sandwich shop to grab a sub for the office.  There’s one customer ahead of me: short woman, fortyfiveish, dull brown hair, talking to the big, cheery blonde who works weekdays.  Looks like snow.

“Think we’ll get much today?” the customer says, nodding vaguely toward the door, then squinting up at the sandwich maker.

“S’posed to,” answers the sandwich maker.  “Lake effect.”  She pauses from her work, absentmindedly wipes her hands on her green apron, brushes wisps of half grown-out bangs from her cheek and tucks them behind her ear.  I’ve been coming in here for almost a year and never asked her name.  Call her Donna.

“Ha!  Doubt it.  I been walking every morning.  S’been a good winter,” says the short woman.  Faded jeans.  Sorels.  Parka patched at the elbow.  Call her Liz, no, Jerrie.

Jerrie’s going on kind of loudly about a movie she saw last night.  Maybe a little drunk.

“…at the Lode.  Bad movie.  Well, good director and all, lots of quick action, sorta like what wazzit called?  Oh, ya know, with those two people.  Woody Harrelson and that girl…”

          “Natural Born Killers?” I offer from over by the cold drinks.  I never actually saw it.

          “Yeah, it was like that, only bad.”  She smiles at me and then resumes her story, a little pleased that the guy in the coat and tie had joined the conversation.  “I fell asleep.  Actually, I closed my eyes when there were these two guys fighting.  I hate it when men are fighting – they were hitting each other in the face.  Blood was spraying all over.  I closed my eyes and missed about a half an hour and woke up and it was almost over.  I hate that.  Donchya hate that?”

          Definitely been drinking.  And it’s only a quarter to one.  We’re the only three people in the shop.  It’s starting to snow.

          “Yeah, I just saw a movie at the Lode, too,” Donna says.  “ Mayonnaise, mustard, oil?”

          “Mayonnaise.”

          “Salt and pepper?”

          “Yeah, thanks.  Whadjya see?”

          “Oh, um…I can’t remember.  Geez, what was it?”

          A brief silence.  Jerrie picks up the slack: “And didjya notice them seats?  When they made it into three theaters, how small them seats got?  I mean, ya gotta hold your arms like this ‘cause that’s all the room ya got.”

          “Not like some of those places with, like, rocking chairs.”

          “Oh, and I got some Dots last night!” Jerrie declares excitedly.  A wide grin appears like a new moon through broken clouds, and her small eyes twinkle.  “They were all chewy and got stuck in my teeth.  Isn’t that great – you know, candy they only have at the movies?”

          “Yeah, and what’s that other kind…Snowballs or something?” I chime in.

          “Snow Caps,” Donna says.

          “Yeah, I was just thinkin’ of them, too,” Jerrie says.  “Idn’t it funny that you can only get ‘em at the movies!”

          “Then there’s that whole other class of candy that you associate with the movies but you can also sometimes find in vending machines, like Raisinettes or Milk Duds,” I add, now fully engaged in the repartee.

          “Life is just so great, idn’t it.  There’s always something new to think about,” Jerrie says.  We all nod and smile.

          “I work in the deli at the IGA,” Jerrie says, as sort of an introduction.  “I make 180 sandwiches a day.  I’m quite the chef.”

          “That’s a lot of sandwiches,” I say.  “ I guess I’m the only one who doesn’t make sandwiches, professionally that is.”  I hope that didn’t sound condescending.  I order a tuna on whole wheat, with jalapenos.

          Jerrie turns and walks toward me.  “What’s on the bottom of the tie,” she asks, and begins to reach for the front of my coat, then softly brushes her thumb along her fingers, like she was about to grab my tie and then pulled back at the last instant.

          “Oh, nothing, just a picture of a fishing lure…and I don’t even fish,” I laugh.  I pull out the tie and hold it up for her to get a better look.

          “I collect vintage ties, ya know,” Jerrie tells me.  “I love ‘em.  Fashion accessories are great.  Old purses, scarves, especially ties.  Know what I mean?”

          “I get mine at thrift stores.  They’re twenty-five cents at Vinnie’s in Hancock, but seventy-five in Houghton,” I say.  “What’s up with that!”

          “I know, I saw a great tie the other day – classic Seventies wide tie with paisley – but it had a big grease stain on it.”  Jerrie grabs a quart of Budweiser and heads for the register. 

          “Be with ya in a minute, just gonna finish this,” Donna says.

          “’Sokay, today’s my day off,” Jerrie replies.  “Goin’ to a friend’s house for lunch.  Beer and a sandwich.  It’s gonna be a great day.  Ya know, a hug would feel great right now.  He’s a stranger…he’ll give me one,” and with that, Jerrie puts the beer on the counter, strides over to me, arms outstretched, head tilted slightly to my left.  I take the last step forward and bend down to meet her, reach my arms around her, and our bodies meet in front of the sliced turkey breast.  The sweet smell of beer breath and the feel of hair against my face pull me to a faraway time and place.  I glance toward the window.  Then Jerrie turns, pays, and walks out.

          By this time, my sandwich is done.  I grab some pretzels and a Diet Pepsi and put them next to the cash register. 

          After I pay, I pull out of my pocket a folded-up flyer for a credit card company.

          “Look at this,” I say to Donna, “They pay you two dollars for every referral you make, and two dollars for every one those people make, right on down the line.  It says here that if you refer ten new people, and they each refer ten, and so on for ten levels, you can earn twenty billion dollars.  Only problem I see is there’s not ten billion people on Earth, and I’m probably not even getting in on this at the top of the pyramid.”

          “Yeah, I guess you’re right,” Donna chuckles.  “And I’ve never even had a credit card.”

          “Really, a business owner like you?”

          “Well, I’m not the owner, just the manager.”

          “Oh, I always figured you were the owner.”

          “No, the owner mostly works weekends.”

          “Was he in here last week, helping you at lunch time.”

          “No, that was probably my husband.  Just taking orders and working the register?”

          “I guess so.  I didn’t really notice.”

          After that there isn’t much else to say.  On the way out I wish her a good day.

          “And you have a real good day, now, too,” she answers.

          It’s snowing harder now, big wet flakes, but I don’t mind.  I turn the corner, head straight into the fresh north wind, and lift my face to the snowflakes, each one perfectly unlike every other.  

         

         

February 2001      

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il postino

I-17, South of Flagstaff

 

10 p.m., starry sky, autumn chill,

winds buffet the van like waves on a lifeboat. 

Returning from the film about Neruda,

warm inside our craft, filled with poetry

and the sad rhythm of miles.   You beside me:

 

talk of love, of a certain face, of the subtle

slurred sound of Beatrice, of your sister’s first kiss

and when I floated on my back in the pitiless sea. 

We know we are editing our words, our thoughts,

our dreams, our lives, and we acknowledge this

 

and more.   And then there’s this:  How do we

polish the sacred surfaces, as Neruda writes,

to reveal the dove who is born of light? 

How do we, with our hands, make the world every day? 

Mile by mile, with a firm grip on the wheel? 

 

Exit 298, adrift in the balmy space of words, 

I watch you slip away, your red hair floating on starlight,

into the cool, deep ocean of night.

 

 

1994

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For Chicken (Jack Straw) the Cat

indirect object

 

quail tap dancing on carport roof

cat crouched on yellow car

looking up

 

blame is transitive

its object direct

or strongly

implied

 

regret is reflexive

like a cat crouched

re-

-cur-

-sive

like birds on a wire

 

cats can

be bedeviled by

the unreachable closeness of birds

 

regret is like this too

 if the roof were gone

he could reach the bird

but where to stand

and where the bird

 

the past is impenetrable as corrugated tin

and wavy

the sound of birds can fascinate

or mock

 

blame the bird


For “Chicken” the Cat

(1987-2001)

 

April rain, a good day for digging,

The cat is just three hours dead

And I still hear his white throat trilling

On the wings of white cranes overhead.

 

Sometimes, Chicken, the sky is falling –

It hangs with the weight of lead.

How long till I no longer sense you

Under every lump in the bed?

 

 

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Two

(all poems copyright Ray Sharp, all rights reserved)

 

In the Dunes

 

2 a.m., 2-below, bivouacked downstairs

under the south window, adrift

in the dunes with Port and Kit.

We’re bouncing in the back of the truck

from El Ga’a to Sbâ , sirocco blown grains

of snow, typhoid fever death chill gale –

only one of us will return.

 

Down, down the deep well of night

paralyzed by the thought that

the sky hides the night behind it,

shelters the person beneath

from the horror that lies above.

Consulting Madame La Hiff’s Gypsy Dream Dictionary

waiting for a sign in the indolent heat.

 

Later – has it been minutes or weeks?

– the full moon breaks through the ground blizzard

like a midday Sahara sun.    I wish I were

on the terrace of the Café d’Eckmühl-Noiseux

under the awning a-flap in the soft evening breeze

reading the maps, or on the surface

of the immaculate moon aloft

in the center of the sheltering sky.

 

 

January 2003

 

*   *   *   *   *

 

Raindrops

 

He dresses by the laundry room window,

one quick knot reflected in the rain-streaked glass.

Raindrops like comets or time-elapse stars.

Rivulets like braided streams in the river delta,

arteries pulsing through fleshy silt-lands.

Somewhere in the spring night, bombs are raining. 

Later this morning he will straighten the tie.

 

March 20, 2003

  

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Listen, I wrote this!

A poem to get us started here:

*   *   *   *   *

You and I are parentheses

 

There is a space between us  

            Unvoiced, ironic, bounded

            By thin moons of restraint

            Two bodies symmetrically opposed

            Enclosing whispered knowings

 

What comes next must be said

            Aloud

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